Julie Simone

tomorrow i get my house back to myself. my man's 2 boys were in town unexpectedly. they're good kids, but they are still boys. it was nice to see him with them, i got to see another side of him.

one of the few things that sucks about working from home is i can't exactly edit porn in the other room while 2 little kids are running around. aside from the fact that i need quiet, it's simply not appropriate. they're going to be back in town for a week around X-mas. i already lost 2.5 days, i can't lose an entire week right before AVN. he's going to try to get someone else to watch them while he's at work, which makes me feel bad and i'm sure it makes me look bad, but i didn't sign up for this. i think people who have kids don't understand that not everyone finds them as interesting as you do. i haven't been around kids much, i don't know what i'm supposed to do to entertain them and talking to them is painfully boring, a true test of patience for sure. "so, you went on a slide, hmmm. you like to ride your bike, umm ok... can you go play or take a nap now?"

kids wake up early and want to play and make noise. i want to sleep in and stay up late. i want QUIET. lots and lots of QUIET, which i'm not going to get enough of while they're here even with a day time babysitter, especially since the kids will be here at night as will the babysitter... i live in a 1 bedroom house with an office/den. i don't want to house and feed all these people and deal with their picky appetites. things were different when i was growing up. you ate what was on your plate or you didn't eat at all.

i thought about going to my mom's, but it's MY house. i'm the last person who should have to leave. and my mom has dial-up, that would be sheer hell.

this year's AVN is quite possibly the most important year for me. i'm at a make or break point and i can't let other people be the reason why i am not adequately prepared.

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